Sunday, March 22, 2015

Back to Life...Back to Reality

We are now home after a whirlwind of celebration for two good friends. It was such an honor to take part in such beautiful tradition in such a beautiful setting. I do wish that it could have been pure celebration for me but it was also so helpful to have something positive to put some focus on.
Tomorrow is Monday and it means we are back to the real world. I'll be honest, I'm a bit nervous to get back to the real world but I'll just have to take it one step at a time.

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Deep Water

On Tuesday morning (around 4am!) Jon, three friends and I set out to the north shore of Oahu to do something I never really thought I would do-we went shark diving! 
We boarded the tiny boat in the dark, stripped down to our swimsuits and set out to 3 miles off shore to swim with sharks. 

Beforehand I had figured there would only be about 3 sharks swimming about. But as soon as the boat "parked" I realized that three was a major understatement-there were about fifteen sharks! Some as big as 10 feet long. And one of the most surprising parts was that they were up near the surface of the water-as curious about us as we were about them. 

Now here's the odd part-I wasn't bit aworried or scared in the slightest. We hopped in the cage and were literally face to face with these beautiful creatures. We were able to look in their eyes and study their bodies-it was amazing! Maybe a better word is mesmerizing. I found myself feeling as though I was in a trance and I watched them gracefully swim about. 

After about a half an hour we hopped out of the cage and got a warm shower off  on the boat as the sun rose.

Sometimes in life there are decisions that you just have to do because it's an amazing experience and put all fear aside-I feel as though this was one of those moments. I am so thankful I stepped out of my comfort zone and got to spend some quality time with these powerful creatures.

Sunday, March 15, 2015


This week Jon and I are in Honolulu for a froend's wedding. It's a weird/good thing to be in such a happy celebration mode when your heart is still grieving. I'm trying my darnedest to really celebrate what is happy and live fully-kinda like a fake it till you make it situation.

This is my third time to this island, the first when I was 17, the second when I was 25 and now here I am back at 30. It is fascinating to see the development of the island just in that short period of time-especially contrasted with how much my own life has changed since then. The more I live the more I realize how essential and mandatory change is. You can ignore it, resist it or accept it and no matter your outlook change will just keep on chugging along. 

I feel like I can only look at things through the lense of loss right now so I apologize in advanced if all my posts take on a "deeper level" for a bit-but that's just where I am at the moment. 

Tomorrow the wedding festivities begin-looking forward to celebrating a new beginning!

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