Oh Don't Worry I'm Just Having A Panic Attack

So far this whole wedding planning thing has been fairly "easy". I know what I like and what I don't. But now that the wedding is only 74 (!) days away I am kinda starting to feel the weight of the whole shebang. I mean there are a lot of little details that seem to be floating around my brain these days. But nothing really got to me, I had/have faith that everything would be just fine. But lately I have been having a hard time getting a hold of our planner. There are a lot of excuses from her, a lot "I'll call you back" and she never does and so forth and so on. As you can imagine, with 74 days left until the wedding. It became really stressful. But I kept trudging through trying not to let anything get to me.

BUT, I guess there was more going on in the inside than I had thought. I say this because after a totally relaxing day on Saturday I found myself feeling chest pains, shortness of breath, clammy hands and my face felt like it was on fire! I called the advice nurse and she said that I should go in to the emergency room to be safe.

So Jon drove me down to the emergency room and my symptoms continued. Keep in mind that this whole time I was feeling pretty calm, just weirded out by the symptoms. The words "panic attack" and "anxiety" kept popping out of the doctor's mouths. Sadly, I am not a stranger to panic attacks but none of these symptoms were ones I was familiar with and lets not forget that I was completely calm. So they checked me out, xrays, blood pressure, temperature, the whole nine and everything looked fine. They said I was probably just stressed. Oof.

Obligatory, emo, look at my hospital bracelet shot.
If you could just cross your fingers real hard that our planner somehow gets her ass in gear real soon, I would appreciate it. In the meantime I will be taking deep breaths and trying to not let myself freak out about stuff-whether I know it or not.